I love dysfunctional relationships

"Let him that would move the world, first move himself" Socrates

"Lets be clear on this..I love dysfunctional relationships..they are just so much more..what's the word? Interesting!"

She wrote to her friend jokingly as she was chatting while she kept trying to get long glances of her boss standing at the end of the room without anyone noticing..but she knew she wasn't joking.

He wasn't only her boss..he was everyone's boss..the head of this organization that she has been dying to work for..and no, he is not bold and fat and old, though even if he were she would have still liked him all the same; "he is gorgeous"..she thought as she took another long glance.

He was standing talking very firmly with some of the employees..he is too serious for his age (late twenties)..too smart for his own good..tall, slim, tanned, great light brownish hair that is perfectly cut with deep blue eyes that have the right brows to give them the effect they need..piercing eyes..rarely smiles but when he does..the whole world lights up..shaved to perfection..always smells beautiful..when he passes by her desk she feels she is light headed

But believe it or not that all doesn't matter!!! Its his speeches that drives her crazy..when he speaks of changing the world and making it a better place..giving voice to the voiceless..all this passion..he is really genuine and has heart! She falls in love every time she hears him speak..

She can still remember the interview..she was extremely intimidated.. and he gave her a poker face all through the interview..she thought she wont get the job though she spoke with such enthusiasm and confidence and gave it her best shot..but when she knew she got it..she was thrilled!

One more fact you should know about Nina's boss..is that he is married! She saw his wife once around the office..she seems sweet and pretty but she doesn’t seem to get a word of what he says! Maybe there's more than the eye could see..she thought..imean a man like that he must have married a brain!

She has been utterly distracted by his presence that day at the office as he gave a fiery speech and kept going around her desk all day..ofcourse without even acknowledging her presence..and then suddenly "NINA" he called on her..she panicked for a second..couldn't even reply..he never called for her before..so he shouted even louder "NINA" she looked at him stupidly and he made a gesture for her to come to his office..so she got up and hurried

Don't you dare imagine Nina as a geek with thick glasses and nerdy attitude..well she wasn't..she was beautiful..too pretty to be smart or at least that smart..and guys were of abundance in her life but none of them seemed to interest her at least not like that charming captivating boss of hers..

She got into his office and she found him busy with some papers and then he told her with a cold voice without even looking up "I need you to stay late tonight..we have to finish the proposal for the upcoming project and we both won't to leave till its done..understood?!" he didn't seem to wait for her approval he was just informing her.

She said yes and went back to her desk to start working..she didn't care about the extra hours she'd spend or the fact that she had a date that she would blow off..she was excited that he chose her and that she would spend more time with him..maybe even alone and maybe he'd talk to her!!!

She worked till she felt that her eyes are going to drop..everyone left..one person at a time..till it was only both of them..looking across the room he seemed tireless as if he can go on forever.."he is definitely not human" she thought

She began to worry that he forgot about her..so she finished rereading what she wrote for the fifth time and gathered her courage to disturb him..she went in..this time he looked up..

"Did you finish?" he asked..she handed him the paper as she said yes..he went through it..her heart was beating as if she was waiting for the results of an exam..even then she was more sure of herself..he looked at her and said "that’s actually good" "did you eat anything?" he asked..she shook her head as to say no..she felt like a school girl in the presence of the principal.."then lets go get some dinner" again he wasn't really taking her opinion..

She grabbed her bag and went to meet him at the elevator door..it was all like a dream to her..so overwhelming! They went down to his car and suddenly she found herself with him in the car..alone..off to dinner!!!

He started small talk..she tried so hard not to make a fool of herself..till they went to a restaurant he chose..it was cozy..one of those places that you most definitely wont come across anyone you'd know

"You drink, right?" he asked "sometimes" Nina said.."well this is going to be one of those times" and he smiled..one of those smiles that makes the world light up..Nina's heart sank..ofcourse she couldn’t say no..

He ordered wine for both of them..didn't even bother to ask her what she prefers..she had a couple of sips and gathered enough stamina to say "I loved your speech" it sounded less childish in her head..he smiled again and thanked her..and then they talked and talked..about everything and anything..she loved his views..he was exactly like she imagined and more..and they had so much in common..it was an amazing evening and she felt elated..she has never had this connection with anyone in years..and to her utter surprise it was as if she saw admiration in his eyes..

As he dropped her off he asked "would your family be okay with the fact that you are coming home from work that late?".."I live on my own" she answered with what seemed as a seductive tone.."well..what about your boyfriend or your fiancé?".."I have neither" she answered and laughed playfully..

She couldn't believe herself when she asked him to come up..it was probably the wine..he even said yes! She had nothing in particular in mind..she just wanted to spend more time with him..she didn’t want to let go of the night that may never come back again..

He complemented her taste..mentioned that he liked her apartment and then suddenly took a long look at her and said.."you are beautiful".. she lost all her common senses at the sound of this..it was his eyes..they were captivating..she felt helpless then he leaned forward and kissed her..it was a beautiful kiss but then suddenly..he moved back..looked at her very seriously and said "I am married and I would never leave my wife..infact I love her..we would never have a serious relationship and no one can ever know..you can never have any hope for anything more because we will never have a happy ending..if you are okay with this then fine..if not then I'd better leave now" "I am a good person and I would never want to lead you on" he added..

She was baffled and mesmerized..her seduced mind couldn’t make any sense of all that has been said or digest the moral dilemma..overwhelmed by the evening all she wanted to do is kiss him..so without saying a word..she did

She didn't wake up the next morning freaked out or feeling extremely guilty or crying her eyes out..not at all like anyone would think..she got dressed got to work..saw him and the way he looked at her hasn't changed a bit neither how she looked at him

Nina started staying late more around the office..her friends can't seem to find the time to see her anymore..she's extremely busy..she stopped dating which is driving her best friend's crazy! Every time they try to fix her up with someone she declines for stupid reasons..

Today is a big day at Nina's office..her boss is starting another "change the world" kind of campaign that is gaining international attention..and there's a huge press conference..everyone is running around the office its crazy..she looked from across the room at her impeccable looking boss standing beside his beautiful wife as he was giving yet another one of his inspirational speeches with the same passion..at that particular moment Nina felt that obviously there's something about changing the world that she just couldn't understand..