Friday, October 22, 2010

Make Me Beautiful

No wonder people spend thousands of pounds, undergo treacherous procedures, and endure unbearable pain just to be beautiful; to fit into the rigorous standards of beauty. This is far from vain or shallow or whatever judgmental analysis the so called "smart" people would tell you while they themselves wish for more beauty.

It’s a power play

You tell me what is power has to do with anything?! I tell you Beauty is Power

Smart is power..beauty is power..being smart And beautiful..well, you do the math

And its all about power! Power is addictive..it is intoxicating. .to be seen rather than feeling invisible most of the time..to enter a room filled with people and find all eyes on you..to see them hanging on your every word..to know that they know that you are different..that they hold you in a higher place..to see admiration in their eyes..that you are not like them..you are better..you are far more beautiful and beauty has to be worshiped..beauty is sacred in all cultures and all languages.beauty has to be served, protected and cared for

When people listen to you..when they are interested when you see and feel your influence on them instantly..whether they fear you or respect you or love you or just feel that they have to without a reason

Beauty is power

She knows that quite well..everytime she looks in the mirror..how she carefully chooses her clothes or spends most of her money on her hair and makeup or watches what she eats..its because she knows she needs this power..the power of beauty..

She read once about a stripper who loved her job because she felt her power on men firsthand and she got addicted to seeing them hanging on her every move while she is feeling extremely empowered..

She needs people to listen..and they listen more to a pretty mouth painted red..she needs them to see and they'd rather look to a pretty face..the click of her heel makes them know she is definitely there..the smell of her perfume fills their senses and validates her existence..

Humans are vain..beauty is power..she needs that..let her "smart" friends say whatever they want about her superficiality! She takes a last long look at the mirror..and off she goes!

Friday, October 8, 2010

When love is no longer blind...

When love is no longer blind and you can finally see..its shocking really!
You suddenly notice things that were there all long but you were too blind to realize that he is:

Too short
A poor dresser
I never really liked his taste in anything..idnt think he ever had a taste to begin with

He's too thin
Too fat
Too ugly
Too pretty for me


I never really liked his glasses
I hated his phone
I hated his house
I hated his car
I hated his hangouts
I hated his friends
I hate his hair

He never answered
He called too much
He didn't give me my space
He gave me too much space

He freaked out
He freaked Me out

He wore the same shoes almost everytime we went out!
He changed his shoes more than I did!

He was too immaculate when it comes to his clothes
He wasn't presentable
He was too organized
He was chaotic

He asked too many questions
He never asked me about my day!
He was too smart
He wasn't smart enough
He never got me
He knew me too well

I liked him too much
I didn't like him enough
He was too loud
He was cold
He was distant
He was too hot headed and he had a temper
He cheated
He kept looking at other women
He was too fixated on me

He was Never honest
He was brutally honest

He was too tall
He thought I was fat
He wanted me to gain more weight

He thought I wasn't smart
He thought I was too smart
He thought I was too short
"if only I were a bit shorter" he used to say
He thought I was too conservative
He thought I was too liberal
He hated my friends
He wished I was more like my friends
He never even met my friends!


He was too kind
He was too sweet
He was too detached
He was too unpredictable
He was SO predictable

And the list goes on…

Bottom line..suddenly he is stripped down to..just a guy and just a guy is not good enough!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Cruelty is not a crime..boredom is

(A girl enters..lights off..complete darkness..only spot light on her..she sits down and talks directly to the audience)

You will never understand…

I know he doesn’t love me

But who needs love when you get excitement! When you don’t have a guy that will BORE you absolutely out of your head with his ridiculous stories about which car he prefers or his tedious day to day experiences

Who needs love when you get a man who can take you out of this hideous world..who gives meaning to your insignificant life..who is truly interesting

Who needs love when you get witty conversations..intelligent dialogue..mutual understanding and smooth communication

Who needs love when you get adventure..when are around a free spirit..when it seems like the secrets of life unfold whenever you are both present in a room

Who needs love when you've got passion..when you've got desire..when you've got thrill

Well I most certainly don't!

I know he sleeps around

Why do I care?! Most of the men if not all of them who are in relationships cheat..at least his honest about it..at least I know and approve of it and not a complete fool like others..maybe even in this room

A monogamous relationship is a naïve dream of a fairy tale of a school girl..a false fact that we've been raised to believe in just to grow up and grow out of it like most of our teenage beliefs

I know we will Never get married

Well I stopped believing in marriage a while ago..a social obligation that doesn't agree with me just like fancy dinner parties..pretentious and not genuine where everyone acts as if they are happy while in fact of course they are not!

See I don't really envy married people..in fact I pitty them..chained and helpless

How so boring and unlively..how so unnatural to decide on staying with someone for life..its more of a prison..never really understood weddings either..what is there to celebrate anyway..all the expenses and the fuss and for what?!

My friends think I am crazy or that he is some sort of a self-destructive habit I have

Maybe its true..but we all have our destructive habits and guilty pleasures that we fall entirely in love with..some of us eat..others smoke or drink or indulge in sex or who knows what?!

I have him!

Don't you think I haven't tried to do it "your" way..to date and engage in serious relationships with the various men that have been wholeheartedly "recommended" for me?!

Ohh I tried..I tried SO hard..but if I lived with one of those "safe" guys I could DIE! Die of boredom..they could suck the life right out of me with their monotonous voice and their righteous attitude and their one dimensional view of everything..of LIFE!

Its grey..life with these men..a Pale shade of grey!

"Cruelty is not a crime..boredom is"

Heard it once in a movie..a woman said it..a writer who had been in a relationship with her lover for years and never got married..trying to explain it to her narrow minded friend..who never understood just like you will never do..But I did and I relate!

(te2om mn 3la el korsy fag2a be3asbya mobala3' feha ledrget en el korsy yo2a3 w tez3a2)


W B3DEN WENTO MALKO ASLAN?!!!!!! Ma3ml ely ana 3yza f 7yaty?!!! Beted7'lo leh?!!! (teshwa7 be 2edeha) 3ashan sa3dty maslan ( w ted7ak be so7'rya)

LA2!!! Mesh 7a2e2y..ento mayhmkoosh ab2a sa3eeda wla la2..ento bas 3yzny a3ml zayko w 7'alas..you want me to conform..3shan lma betla2o 7ad bey3ml 7aga mo7'talefa betatro tes2lo nafsko!!! And NOOOO you don't want that..you would never want to question your values or beliefs..this is too scary for you!!!

And who said I am not happy?! I admit there comes a time when I cry endlessly and I feel like the world is crashing down one me when he decides to disappear for monthes..but it all vanishes when I see him..But you will never get it..

I told you..you will never ever understand…

Lights out